Feeling Angry.

I don't know what is going on inside my body, but whatever it is needs to stop.  I've been so angry and upset the past few days.  I've been thinking about Aaron's ex-es and Dylan way too much.  Fucking Maddie. Bitch.  I found some messages on Aaron's fb awhile ago between the two of him saying how he still cares for her, his favorite dance was with her, and a few other things.  I know it was last fall and we'd only been dating for 6 months, but still.  I'm kind of trying to let it go because I know where Aaron and I stand now is much farther than he and Maddie ever did, but she keeps popping into my head! I feel like she is a better person overall than I am.  The way they talked to each other was so easy and nice.  It's nothing like how he and I talk to each other.  I guess I may be second guessing his decision the way I do with my own when I'm upset.  It's ridiculous. In my head I know it is. Sometimes it easy to fall into that state of mind.  I shouldn't. I know it should be long gone.  I know we love each other. I really have no idea what's gotten into my head.  I want it gone.  I'm hoping that going home in a few days for Christmas will help.  It will help or make it much worse.. We'll see I guess.

1. Music

2. Working Out

3. Life Cereal

4. Camelbak Water Bottles